SO what have we been UP to:
First Kids:
Danyell, Cris and baby Jake: Danyell went back to work, stopped nursing him and is vaccinating her baby. I start to struggle with what she does to her baby and then I stop and remember it is all perfect and this is her life and her experience. (mind my own business, I love her, I know she is amazing and she will figure her life out, it is all perfect)!
Marc has finally had enough of living outside on the streets or going from place to place (refuses to come home) and decided he is ready for a new start and wants to join the Army. After we receive his school transcripts (online school) and he passes physical and drug test (lets hope) he will be off and available to enroll. I personally have not been for a military, I think there's a higher way (peaceful) and yet I am happy he wants something more than I park bench. (again mind my own bus, I love him and I am confident he will do what is best for himself, he is an amazing young man).
Breeana I am more and more amazed about the person Bree is. She is kind, giving and open to possibilities of higher self awareness. I was speaking to one of my soul sisters who has a wonderful son a few months older than Bree and we began talking about our children and a possibility of them together in the future. For the first time I started to recognize all of Bree's young adult qualities that will make her a fantastic partner. She is easy going and strong about her belief's that are important to her. She has a keen understanding for others and loves herself (lucky girl). She is not a big spender unless it is really important to her and she loves to save and gets the cash only system! She is always on board when we have family group meetings to resolve issues as a whole family and is always on board for the fun. She is sensitive to others and is great with kids all the while taking care of herself. My friend's son is so similar and they have both been unschool (although both are in school now), both were home birthed and long term breast fed, and their mommas are sooo close. In addition so are they and so are we with them. If only we could plant that seed in them, we realize now is NOT the time for many obvious reasons so for now her and I can dream secretly! LOL (ok ok mind my business, I love her so much). Bree is not liking her school and said to me one day "I dont understand why they have school if I want to know something I always have google" I could not agree more and because I can do nothing about it except to listen, allow her to express her feelings and then I offered "Bree I have found many times in my life when I felt trapped and during these dark times I ran and the darkness follow when I found a way to allow for a new prospective of the darkness. All the sudden I grew and there was light, I was free if only in my heart and soul." All I can hope is to say and be the best I can and give her that example.
Mitch is growing and maturing by the day in less than 3 months now he will be 9 years. He is such a mirror in my life I cant help but love this little man (there is so much of myself in him). Ever since he was born I felt he was an older soul just his body alone was almost 10lbs (this after having 3 children under 7lbs) and when I looked into his eyes the first day I met him and held him I could see he was much wiser and older than a tiny baby and I feel he has inspired me far beyond what I could do for him. I still am me and I know he appreciates me and all I do for him. He still does not want to read and I am great with it (he is exceptional with numbers and has a genuine desire to learn new things), its daddy that still has a fear surrounding the situation. Yet Mitch is willing to do anything as long as it is on his terms and in his time. For example 2 years ago he and I were talking and I asked him out of curiosity when he thought he might be finished nursing, how old he would be (love of numbers man he is). He thought with all seriousness and then said "I will be 8 when I am done." The last time he asked to nurse was 3 months before he turned 8. To honor Blake I spoke to Mitch about when he thought he may be interested in reading he thought for a moment and said 9 years and 3 months. This made Blake feel better and we can all rest and keep allowing his learning to continue (even though I think he is learning to read already) in peace.
Carter is thriving and growing a little at a time. He likes being the "baby" of the family and with that he still likes momma and daddy to do most things for him. If I am in a situation were I can not help him I remind him that I would love to help him and am unavailable now and I know he can do anything he puts him mind to and he does it. I think he likes just knowing I am there for him. He loves and struggles as a young uncle and at times is learning that babies want what you have or what your doing they want to do. He is growing and enjoying just being a sweet little man (he is so sweet I just loves him).
Blake's job (just over broke) at Fedex has changed hands and now he works less, nights only, makes 40% less money and with the exception of the night driving/day sleeping we are happier. We even have the IRS in our business for untrue taxes they say we owe and we both have the least amount of American spirit (government confidence) and both cars need fixing and less money means less to pay all of our bills-SO WHAT we are still lovin life and havin fun! He and I our waiting for our bail out and remaining positive something will show up for us. What a partner I have he cleans, does laundry and dishes (both of which I dislike) and does everything with amazing love and not because he has to. He is not all on board with unschooling (fine with homeschool although I have asked him what that looks like to him and he cant answer me) and I am practicing on a balance between honoring him and the kids in this unschooling/life learning life. He supports me in every way and loves to play and be with his children. (I love him so much he is wonderful!)
ME, Myself and I am running a new living foods blog, fruitygreenfamily, and am currently getting my new website, The Garden Spot Cafe, up and running were I have created a raw food "club" for state purposes (health department, government, etc) in which I will be delivering raw food meals 3 days a week to YOU! People with be able to go to my website to check out the menus and then pay the membership fee based on daily(1 day meal), weekly(3 days a week meals) or monthly(12 meals a month) raw food meals delivered to their doors or work in the morning Monday, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Eventually I would like to do special events and raw cakes. I think this is actually the best. With a restaurant, it would be harder to move and leave when I am ready. And I am after all a gypsy. So if I need to leave for a month or so I can!
So check out The Garden Spot Cafe for delicious healthy meals delivered to you!
I am really excited about my new habit of calmness. I am currently creating a habit of calmness within myself so for the rest of the next 23 days (20 left) I am practicing responding and understanding. Anger and rage are apart of my past and calmness, understanding, fun, feel great excitement are my present and future.
Thanks to all me friends for their love and support and I loves and miss you all!
Darlene
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