tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81893100768017987102024-03-13T09:06:12.993-07:00PEACEFUL SPIRITED LIFEI came out from love to love! Love limitless, allowing, love of endless promises and the ability to achieve everything and do anything. I am spirit, always have been spirit, will always be spirit. I am all that is good, possible and inspiring. I know everything, everyone, all is right. I believe I can have all. I am apart of all and I am whole, complete and know all is beautiful, wonderful and perfect.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger63125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-81652020350178327512009-02-08T22:43:00.000-08:002009-02-08T23:08:05.364-08:00Whats up and down!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-Ch8HvvMk-e8jzhBhw9i-ws70gsM6U9yHBvaVQMM_aEPmixtSwURsfJL7toX4u30IhUC6hlBtVHGIA-Cw-fx5SR2YRuCSuKVDPT-tGq5z_eaGwj8Atmsy6B9NpmYQJJxqdQG7-khaE5XU/s1600-h/IMG_3070.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-Ch8HvvMk-e8jzhBhw9i-ws70gsM6U9yHBvaVQMM_aEPmixtSwURsfJL7toX4u30IhUC6hlBtVHGIA-Cw-fx5SR2YRuCSuKVDPT-tGq5z_eaGwj8Atmsy6B9NpmYQJJxqdQG7-khaE5XU/s200/IMG_3070.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5300688792574343058" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjoZGnTHWyZ5lQkjB6ZhtazoZJGrPAnaHAZ_SY8qtfvICR7DvX_SAqTt2bXPmBa9DkWPf4EnH03am79xrwHrtnjBNs5OvB7eZErL6SzY6aACL7gdvyHF9H3e8hyphenhyphenKF57GYKjdj9iANLW21i9/s1600-h/IMG_3081.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjoZGnTHWyZ5lQkjB6ZhtazoZJGrPAnaHAZ_SY8qtfvICR7DvX_SAqTt2bXPmBa9DkWPf4EnH03am79xrwHrtnjBNs5OvB7eZErL6SzY6aACL7gdvyHF9H3e8hyphenhyphenKF57GYKjdj9iANLW21i9/s200/IMG_3081.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5300688787943596210" /></a><br />So lately I have been so <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">incredibly</span> busy. I started a business and I think it is owning me. I love to create amazing food for people and I love to connect and inspire others and of course I love to be abundant. When I am a full time stay at home momma I miss my inspiration and connection with others. When I am a full time personal raw chef running my own biz I miss my kids, my personal time and sleep. I am having fun and I want balance. So the best thing for me to do is sort what I do want and I know the perfect solution WILL show up:<div><br /><div>I want to inspire others about "green" solutions for the world and inspire others to get MORE Fresh live foods into their lives: <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">possibility</span>, through a cable show or possibly a live show through my site, sounds good to me so far.</div><div><br /></div><div>I want to be a momma inspiring my children (grand children) to follow their passions, working 7 hours a week sounds great to me.</div><div><br /></div><div>I want to take time to be with myself, reading and writing or video taping, sounds great with that 7 hour work week.</div><div><br /></div><div>I want to spend fun time with my husband, he is so great and supportive he has been cleaning up after me through this raw business! More time with him with this 7 hour work week.</div><div><br /></div><div>I want to be on Oprah and inspire her to eat live foods for 30 days. Oprah is the key to inspiring more and more people to get more live fresh foods into their lives. Doing videos on my site and creating LOTS of traffic to <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">fruitygreenfamily</span>.com sounds great!</div><div><br /></div><div>I want to love and keep my friends I adore my friends and I love to hang with them! 7 hour work week, YES!</div><div><br /></div><div>I feel so much better!</div><div><br /></div><div>Kids are great!</div><div>Blake has been spending an hour or so a day "teaching" or rather inspiring the kids to grow towards his standards and they seem to be so liking it.</div><div>Carter is writing his name.</div><div>Mitch is reading and writing more and more. He just recently help me as the cashier at one of our raw food events. He was as usual so awesome I love watching them grow.</div><div>Bree is so busy I hardly see her, the teen years have begun and she has become more and more of a social butterfly.</div><div>Mark has to study and take the Army test again. Because he was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">homeschooled</span> he has to score over 50 and he just missed it.</div><div><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Danyell</span>, Cris and Jake, Great! Jake is starting to take steps WOW how fast they grow.</div><div><br /></div><div>I think I should sleep!</div><div>NIGHT</div><div><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">DArlene</span></div><div><br /></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-5155254884760152402009-01-12T12:22:00.001-08:002009-01-12T14:30:08.755-08:00Hello again!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiesrDXFCsgmVvVFi_VjtHjBtSCDYVLbARoUA4ArIfbhoYJsGd0G_JVp_3-u-ZD9aaUvudK2P5VQ-FgtkUzsctNyWfiw-MJGznqLBpyFecW9pNff-z2kw6r1W1JXkLrlpnkDP4UBYeX9bIJ/s1600-h/IMG_0369.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiesrDXFCsgmVvVFi_VjtHjBtSCDYVLbARoUA4ArIfbhoYJsGd0G_JVp_3-u-ZD9aaUvudK2P5VQ-FgtkUzsctNyWfiw-MJGznqLBpyFecW9pNff-z2kw6r1W1JXkLrlpnkDP4UBYeX9bIJ/s200/IMG_0369.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5290536200488360802" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuqXOgTXr-b_T_NhvG9oSbbcdz21zTWI-mWARI4uYuzJDl4WtORBfuwnohYhKv5pDHsgjt26hgfDhCb_p5soGzCf2xmx0drMA-IDD9nzYamvwD0Sc2eGwO1QifBbTETQt8nIzx4Ps0EQFo/s1600-h/IMG_0278.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuqXOgTXr-b_T_NhvG9oSbbcdz21zTWI-mWARI4uYuzJDl4WtORBfuwnohYhKv5pDHsgjt26hgfDhCb_p5soGzCf2xmx0drMA-IDD9nzYamvwD0Sc2eGwO1QifBbTETQt8nIzx4Ps0EQFo/s200/IMG_0278.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5290536190473211362" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiRA0DrfS1BsYwY1nCN1xxzEjzICwGynr82ikwCVtZrs1q69YJHkSmC0xGLUh51Lf9MmIKGFOeSSegYI2AiCl2wWLABwXdo0y98wHojziVKkdu1T1KWIrQfH_EHh8KaBZx4YacHU-J0laG5/s1600-h/IMG_0355.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiRA0DrfS1BsYwY1nCN1xxzEjzICwGynr82ikwCVtZrs1q69YJHkSmC0xGLUh51Lf9MmIKGFOeSSegYI2AiCl2wWLABwXdo0y98wHojziVKkdu1T1KWIrQfH_EHh8KaBZx4YacHU-J0laG5/s200/IMG_0355.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5290536175628699666" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVpjBTJXcfcYzA6sqdCjluIaPytv11dZzxmfQzTrfpW2io-6Sbvfp2Ou5wPm1I_XMarz1c0AdQC_4rIidjaQ5bJJc1d8bLs29tOsDJWJka6hsARv_bk1JQdXHmemSEQ_vAiqD_mngc7q-Z/s1600-h/IMG_0332.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVpjBTJXcfcYzA6sqdCjluIaPytv11dZzxmfQzTrfpW2io-6Sbvfp2Ou5wPm1I_XMarz1c0AdQC_4rIidjaQ5bJJc1d8bLs29tOsDJWJka6hsARv_bk1JQdXHmemSEQ_vAiqD_mngc7q-Z/s200/IMG_0332.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5290536170225779458" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6sNKPkHgggo9H9h6KU8M4hwtc33bHbsu58QDki-oK9Gfv9Le5uIKgM9puvmHYgnIsexdVDcPymGVposcWIBVV5MH3lnfNf5HeYAoCqx56c-FJnR8lEiHa-7xvs5JbNCub_wz1oIFJDgH8/s1600-h/IMG_0301.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6sNKPkHgggo9H9h6KU8M4hwtc33bHbsu58QDki-oK9Gfv9Le5uIKgM9puvmHYgnIsexdVDcPymGVposcWIBVV5MH3lnfNf5HeYAoCqx56c-FJnR8lEiHa-7xvs5JbNCub_wz1oIFJDgH8/s200/IMG_0301.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5290536166015121282" /></a><br />SO what have we been UP to: <div>First Kids:</div><div><br /></div><div>Danyell, Cris and baby Jake: Danyell went back to work, stopped nursing him and is vaccinating her baby. I start to struggle with what she does to her baby and then I stop and remember it is all perfect and this is her life and her experience. (mind my own business, I love her, I know she is amazing and she will figure her life out, it is all perfect)!</div><div><br /></div><div>Marc has finally had enough of living outside on the streets or going from place to place (refuses to come home) and decided he is ready for a new start and wants to join the Army. After we receive his school transcripts (online school) and he passes physical and drug test (lets hope) he will be off and available to enroll. I personally have not been for a military, I think there's a higher way (peaceful) and yet I am happy he wants something more than I park bench. (again mind my own bus, I love him and I am confident he will do what is best for himself, he is an amazing young man).</div><div><br /></div><div>Breeana I am more and more amazed about the person Bree is. She is kind, giving and open to possibilities of higher self awareness. I was speaking to one of my soul sisters who has a wonderful son a few months older than Bree and we began talking about our children and a possibility of them together in the future. For the first time I started to recognize all of Bree's young adult qualities that will make her a fantastic partner. She is easy going and strong about her belief's that are important to her. She has a keen understanding for others and loves herself (lucky girl). She is not a big spender unless it is really important to her and she loves to save and gets the cash only system! She is always on board when we have family group meetings to resolve issues as a whole family and is always on board for the fun. She is sensitive to others and is great with kids all the while taking care of herself. My friend's son is so similar and they have both been unschool (although both are in school now), both were home birthed and long term breast fed, and their mommas are sooo close. In addition so are they and so are we with them. If only we could plant that seed in them, we realize now is NOT the time for many obvious reasons so for now her and I can dream secretly! LOL (ok ok mind my business, I love her so much). Bree is not liking her school and said to me one day "I dont understand why they have school if I want to know something I always have google" I could not agree more and because I can do nothing about it except to listen, allow her to express her feelings and then I offered "Bree I have found many times in my life when I felt trapped and during these dark times I ran and the darkness follow when I found a way to allow for a new prospective of the darkness. All the sudden I grew and there was light, I was free if only in my heart and soul." All I can hope is to say and be the best I can and give her that example.</div><div><br /></div><div>Mitch is growing and maturing by the day in less than 3 months now he will be 9 years. He is such a mirror in my life I cant help but love this little man (there is so much of myself in him). Ever since he was born I felt he was an older soul just his body alone was almost 10lbs (this after having 3 children under 7lbs) and when I looked into his eyes the first day I met him and held him I could see he was much wiser and older than a tiny baby and I feel he has inspired me far beyond what I could do for him. I still am me and I know he appreciates me and all I do for him. He still does not want to read and I am great with it (he is exceptional with numbers and has a genuine desire to learn new things), its daddy that still has a fear surrounding the situation. Yet Mitch is willing to do anything as long as it is on his terms and in his time. For example 2 years ago he and I were talking and I asked him out of curiosity when he thought he might be finished nursing, how old he would be (love of numbers man he is). He thought with all seriousness and then said "I will be 8 when I am done." The last time he asked to nurse was 3 months before he turned 8. To honor Blake I spoke to Mitch about when he thought he may be interested in reading he thought for a moment and said 9 years and 3 months. This made Blake feel better and we can all rest and keep allowing his learning to continue (even though I think he is learning to read already) in peace. </div><div><br /></div><div>Carter is thriving and growing a little at a time. He likes being the "baby" of the family and with that he still likes momma and daddy to do most things for him. If I am in a situation were I can not help him I remind him that I would love to help him and am unavailable now and I know he can do anything he puts him mind to and he does it. I think he likes just knowing I am there for him. He loves and struggles as a young uncle and at times is learning that babies want what you have or what your doing they want to do. He is growing and enjoying just being a sweet little man (he is so sweet I just loves him).</div><div><br /></div><div>Blake's job (just over broke) at Fedex has changed hands and now he works less, nights only, makes 40% less money and with the exception of the night driving/day sleeping we are happier. We even have the IRS in our business for untrue taxes they say we owe and we both have the least amount of American spirit (government confidence) and both cars need fixing and less money means less to pay all of our bills-SO WHAT we are still lovin life and havin fun! He and I our waiting for our bail out and remaining positive something will show up for us. What a partner I have he cleans, does laundry and dishes (both of which I dislike) and does everything with amazing love and not because he has to. He is not all on board with unschooling (fine with homeschool although I have asked him what that looks like to him and he cant answer me) and I am practicing on a balance between honoring him and the kids in this unschooling/life learning life. He supports me in every way and loves to play and be with his children. (I love him so much he is wonderful!)</div><div><br /></div><div>ME, Myself and I am running a new living foods blog, <a href="http://fruitygreenfamily.com/">fruitygreenfamily</a>, and am currently getting my new website, <a href="http://thegardenspotcafe.com/">The Garden Spot Cafe</a>, up and running were I have created a raw food "club" for state purposes (health department, government, etc) in which I will be delivering raw food meals 3 days a week to YOU! People with be able to go to my website to check out the menus and then pay the membership fee based on daily(1 day meal), weekly(3 days a week meals) or monthly(12 meals a month) raw food meals delivered to their doors or work in the morning Monday, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Eventually I would like to do special events and raw cakes. I think this is actually the best. With a restaurant, it would be harder to move and leave when I am ready. And I am after all a gypsy. So if I need to leave for a month or so I can!</div><div>So check out <a href="http://thegardenspotcafe.com/">The Garden Spot Caf</a><a href="http://thegardenspotcafe.com/">e</a> for delicious healthy meals delivered to you!</div><div><br /></div><div>I am really excited about my new habit of calmness. I am currently creating a habit of calmness within myself so for the rest of the next 23 days (20 left) I am practicing responding and understanding. Anger and rage are apart of my past and calmness, understanding, fun, feel great excitement are my present and future. </div><div><br /></div><div>Thanks to all me friends for their love and support and I loves and miss you all!</div><div>Darlene</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-1343580922999074442008-10-28T19:09:00.000-07:002008-10-28T19:55:19.899-07:00Time for me to get out of my own way!I am creative so much so that at times I lose interest in one thing and pick up another. I do still want to do the restaurant and part of me is just waiting the other is wondering what I should do, I need $50,000 to start it. I presented my first living foods class in 4 years and I had a blast. <div>Ideas I want to do:</div><div>1. I want to present inspiring demos with the intention to inspire people, children to get more and more fresh uncooked fruits, green and veggies in their lives.</div><div>2. Write children's books (I have 2 out of 3 done, waiting on pictures from young artists). </div><div>3. Write a living foods book, simple, quick, fun recipes along with tips. </div><div>4. Own a fun live food cafe with dancing, music, etc. </div><div>5. Have a fun live food/green living show on the TV</div><div>6. Travel around the world inspiring others to eat more live fresh foods. </div><div>7. Teach children (young adults) about thework.com so they may help themselves solve problems.</div><div><br /></div><div>My friend did a tarot card reading on me Sat. night. The reading was the same as usual, I am not in the reading: my children and spouse are and my world is them and not with me. We did it 2 times and both times came up almost the same cards. We named it "stale mate" since I am waiting "tick tock". What you may ask am I waiting for, my children to grow up, my husband to go into business for himself. Yes, I get an idea in my head and I stop and say "I am a mother for now and when they grow up I will do xyz"! </div><div><br /></div><div>Next my friend pulled out these wonderful beautiful cards and laid them out on the table, I picked one "the creator". WOW it was my card it was a great one. One of the most powerful cards in the deck. It is exactly how I see myself, amazing powerful creator, world inspiring being! And it added "I need to get out of my own way!" YES I could not agree more. </div><div>As I was heading home and everyday since I am making a decision and putting it down for the first time.</div><div>It is my turn to live my life. Living my life is living my integrity and showing my children how to be true to themselves. I will replace Blake's income and he will be the stay at home dad. Danyell and Marc are out of the house Bree is in school and busy all the time and Blake is the fun dad (I wish my dad was like him), Mitch and Carter want their dad more and more. Breast feeding is done and Mitch asks to be with his dad more and more. I think this is natural for boys who have a cool dad like Blake. Not that I am not cool I am just social and I love to get out and share me with others and be with others. I know this and now is the time. </div><div><br /></div><div>To be honest with myself at this moment I do feel a bit scared, new territory after 20 years of constant raising and having of the children. I think having children is safe for me my know how because it is most of what I have been doing since 16 years old. I am having to step out onto the ledge and jump. I know once I do I will feel like a chick out of its shell, ready to go peeking around. </div><div>I remember leaving my parents home at 14 yrs. I felt less fear then. I know I have felt restless for almost a year now. I know my inner being is asking to be more of me and less in the business of my children who I have so longed lived through. I love them and they came through me for their experience and I came for mine they are apart of my experiences not all of them. I have attached myself to their worlds and become co-dependant on them and their world. I am loving and appreciating this moment right now, I feel sick and excited all at the same time. </div><div><br /></div><div>How will I start:</div><div>Today I set up my new business blog www.fruitygreenfamily.com and applied to be an affiliate for Vita-Mix on my site. Called Whole Foods to do live food demos. Called friend to do a live food demo at her home and record it to send to food networks.</div><div>Thursday I will finish my third children's book. </div><div>Next Tuesday I will start my raw food book and complete by end of Nov. 2008</div><div>I feel better about myself and less fear just writing about it and I will do thework.com to keep myself in motion. </div><div><br /></div><div>Thanks for your reading of my rantings!</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-8394850584449056942008-10-03T15:16:00.000-07:002008-10-03T15:42:09.948-07:00What's Up<div>Here is a quick update::</div><div><br /></div>All kids are great:<div>Danyell: Married in July to Cris and Jake G-baby is now 7 1/2 months old crawling, and now the fun begins. Ya Me I get to play with Jakey and Danyell to be mom!</div><div>Marc: still gone, I know he is going from friend to friend in North Las Vegas, I miss the person behind the drugs and I know he is figuring it out!<br /><div>Bree: is raising money to go to Washington DC in Dec. with Montessori, getting some experience in young adult relationships at school and I love and miss her being home all the time. Montessori is saying they are going to continue with high school, that is good since she is not public school or other private school material. I think when the courts cant force her to go to school anymore she will NOT! I know she likes her friends at school a lot and I know she loves her freedom more. </div><div>Mitch: video gaming, TV and friends as much as possible. I will be filming him being a little raw food chef this month. Part of our family goal to be finacially independant.</div><div>Carter: video games, TV, Movies, and friends. He is experiencing what its like to interact with other little men and at times it has been painful, mostly he is a happy, peaceful man.</div><div>Blake: IRS and Audit, need I say more. I keep inspiring him to stay in his happy space. Major changes at work, Fedex Freight and he may be moving on come Jan. after 25 yrs.</div><div><br /></div><div>Myself: WOW I am feeling more at peace and happy daily. Doing www.thework.com, basically 4 questions and turnaround about your thoughts it is the best way I have ever found to change your thoughts, change your reality!</div><div>Writing 3 childrens book (2 done), adult book: creative ways to get your kids to eat more fruits and greens book, Raw kids dvd with Mitch, I have all my business plan done and I am ready for $50,000 to show up and happen. And/or the local raw food restaurant, Go Raw, asked me to be apart of their expansion and buy into their business (we will see). Big realization for me, I am allowing myself to live in my own business (not so much in my children's business). I am having the best time!</div><div>I will creating a new blog for the books and other business I have in mind (raw ice cream). </div><div><br /></div><div>Lovez and Peace</div><div>D</div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-5915914792908599752008-09-26T09:18:00.000-07:002008-10-03T15:43:15.501-07:00Busy Busy Busy<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgILZu9KrEIuV3P-ViDctsarRlrutuqb2bUiihJTbzIKZpg9emljyHCBtqZSmgl9VcNfePBMtuE9Uj5ADSmXlgYTyCdYo6Udg2lKpYpjkX3jJzfw2ka2pWT9Cay_MKiGRlOIOy_8BKzoq2Y/s1600-h/IMG_0146.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgILZu9KrEIuV3P-ViDctsarRlrutuqb2bUiihJTbzIKZpg9emljyHCBtqZSmgl9VcNfePBMtuE9Uj5ADSmXlgYTyCdYo6Udg2lKpYpjkX3jJzfw2ka2pWT9Cay_MKiGRlOIOy_8BKzoq2Y/s200/IMG_0146.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5250368530088016642" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjcME0_Yqe17Ukk9L7sALfo4VNo-pk3jeXv4sE1Kl_4FxPC9ZUOsTE8felYyDB2KFunj8dAHFcz1o6ddwb6H0o_0dpdNM4LyZc34pimsbh0dgU-fGRmsuH2WhNLSu4TzHcbvdnwogWWCAvd/s1600-h/IMG_0123.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjcME0_Yqe17Ukk9L7sALfo4VNo-pk3jeXv4sE1Kl_4FxPC9ZUOsTE8felYyDB2KFunj8dAHFcz1o6ddwb6H0o_0dpdNM4LyZc34pimsbh0dgU-fGRmsuH2WhNLSu4TzHcbvdnwogWWCAvd/s200/IMG_0123.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5250368529196475778" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjU-9nCRoLd_HtKeN8ryfn-nFXNKeEy3pu6nDczX-7VxBnYRXuK4AZHGW5DIeHrlMN2y_a73wkadRJ5vcUYei___HHozfjvVn-RjgMrEMEUG8sYFjWwbrRVFQD2iK6gjLD8coMq54r_Vw4A/s1600-h/IMG_0171.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjU-9nCRoLd_HtKeN8ryfn-nFXNKeEy3pu6nDczX-7VxBnYRXuK4AZHGW5DIeHrlMN2y_a73wkadRJ5vcUYei___HHozfjvVn-RjgMrEMEUG8sYFjWwbrRVFQD2iK6gjLD8coMq54r_Vw4A/s200/IMG_0171.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5250368534471126786" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtmrUrOoTvOMZ7_HHAVKBnzb2iCNE_jnwKuS5p_yivFUkm82BTI8c0gThC10veGKJ36kqw-roMZC0gWnNDBv0HI4McsRPkLcmj-C_3hffoXNb3zpTQ-ZFU-jMTowcahX1DqsntrCEvKTHu/s1600-h/IMG_0239.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtmrUrOoTvOMZ7_HHAVKBnzb2iCNE_jnwKuS5p_yivFUkm82BTI8c0gThC10veGKJ36kqw-roMZC0gWnNDBv0HI4McsRPkLcmj-C_3hffoXNb3zpTQ-ZFU-jMTowcahX1DqsntrCEvKTHu/s200/IMG_0239.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5250368540525441682" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVdR5ALKKjGKJOGzib0xXyRxXSr6Zm0S9BRRhytddoh-kgb_EhqMQW_Dm5qOtVZbC3FpfybHcuqetqaLggPMlEflZEqTWsfiWAjba-siBzNM0wvHxJOcNAUb9C1npOmrCbzyWzqxeRtid8/s1600-h/IMG_0164.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVdR5ALKKjGKJOGzib0xXyRxXSr6Zm0S9BRRhytddoh-kgb_EhqMQW_Dm5qOtVZbC3FpfybHcuqetqaLggPMlEflZEqTWsfiWAjba-siBzNM0wvHxJOcNAUb9C1npOmrCbzyWzqxeRtid8/s200/IMG_0164.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5250368540769585682" /></a>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-28165685697859454172008-08-29T17:57:00.000-07:002008-08-29T19:03:50.445-07:00I AM<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcizAkP-qpphBQqUj4araeQqROegGCKAC0StoDt58hUszrl7L_4jdY-7PY2zv4yJfWVngroej2iR08qr4AeSPs_5njF77PDUjn9cf0lta2HAuF8sk6oriTNguL5cZH2RO_erMQW-NMzjzW/s1600-h/love3.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcizAkP-qpphBQqUj4araeQqROegGCKAC0StoDt58hUszrl7L_4jdY-7PY2zv4yJfWVngroej2iR08qr4AeSPs_5njF77PDUjn9cf0lta2HAuF8sk6oriTNguL5cZH2RO_erMQW-NMzjzW/s200/love3.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5240123373492770338" /></a><br />I came out from love to love! Love limitless, allowing, love of endless promises and the ability to achieve everything and do anything. I am spirit, always have been spirit, will always be spirit. I am all that is good, possible and inspiring. I know everything, everyone, all is right. I believe I can have all. I am apart of all and I am whole, complete and know all is beautiful, wonderful and perfect. YES, Possibilities are forever, all is done and ready. I am present, now is always the time. We are one, creating, moving together in sync with everything, anything, ALL together. <div><br /></div><div>Look into your eyes, my eyes, see all, Glowing. Listen, hear the music of your soul, our soul, Dance. Feel the energy within, Connect to you to me to all. Taste of life, savor your flavor, Satisfaction. Smell the scent of your bliss, our BlissFULness, follow Bliss! </div><div><br /></div><div>E(in)NJOY together-LOVE- all is </div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>L</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>O</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>V</div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>E !!</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-76515876710638888522008-08-29T13:10:00.000-07:002008-08-29T15:07:54.810-07:00Mitch's New DoMonday Aug. 25, 2008<br /><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhWWTl7tyvNNh3UUlgtNz5YFcf2nhJz2csUb1hzdMfMmym6GBoLUPSlo6uv0VU5BUrjFLs7q6Js6Q-eUpW1dQJjcgz_Jy9cM7pdGW3wPYr1RTtDwrWzicygJ0G62Xmmj451giw0wYQ2HXgX/s200/IMG_0046.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5240036499554997826" /><br />Mitch came to me the other day and said "I want to cut my hair!" I was shocked, to say the least. Just months ago he said he never wanted to cut his hair "it keeps me shaded in the summer and warm in the winter." So I of course asked why and he replied "at night when I past by the mirror I scare myself because I look like the dead girl from the ring." Now just for clarification he has not seen the ring but he has seen the previews on TV of the ring and that was enough for him. <div><br /></div><div>Now if only he had wanted his hair cut a month ago before he decided to do the dread lock do it would have been much easier! </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>After a half hour of dad brushing his hair in the tub we decided</div><div>the except the top 4 inches, the bottom 14 inches where untangled and good enough to braid and send to Locks of Love. I cut the braid and we put it in a zip lock and sent it off to Locks of Love.</div><div><br /></div><div><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5Mp4W4YQa008p0uFxElhU1ycOsb3otald1QHQXjrqeiC0tAk5g8coQCMsojpee2nRcCpFXCNOes1Vuv3CeW0z2-Igw9_MUdfIk0i4XAxBCsXDEzD-Hqcj99ZMQ0pjacVUHlXeBopOlxS9/s200/IMG_0051.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5240057637594215842" /></div><div>I cried, I have been resisting change lately, and when I looked at him with no more long locks I could see my babies face a face I had not really seen in years. The hair seemed to cover more than just his back and sometimes face but a little of his light. He shed away 8 years of hair growth and yet I felt lately Mitch has been shed lots of anger and fits too. Change is a part of each second and thanks to these constant beings in my life I eventually relax into the love and joy of their growth and mine. </div><div><br /></div><div>Mitch said he felt weird and was not sure if he wanted to see any of his friends without a hat on. By Wednesday at Life Learners, I dont think he even thought a second about his hair. For him time with his hair ended in seconds and he was moving on! For mom shedding a few tears from sadness, then joy was healing for me. He just does what he feels he needs and moves on. I appreciate him reminding me what it is to be in your source and go do stream with the flow!</div><div><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh3P2MpHxnu94Ts97O_YIKf6NyxZdF0-0efgmEF6T2jJGLTIXvVR_owFj9HNA53R8Wz6vPpEflHon_XjpsmB4hGScWdJGE0Fyluroy3lolbIdRVddFr21WhFLNUfE-PX2_xb6KO6io09n7C/s200/IMG_0087.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5240057640717739506" /></div><div><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRySjOLSJdnP5DYweTZIrkhC5Wy6ZKYr3NHaomfE_3299l6JCoMLqPIe5dWL_QrQBtYiN6uinb1V_eLtmKGT2UIjkGjTTmhGM2PojvAKFAwEgeLZGgD4or6kubmQTtQKbiTUAPk4ZQdd2j/s200/IMG_0088.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5240057640604370050" /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-81003118713195014822008-08-06T21:55:00.000-07:002008-08-06T22:54:43.047-07:00What's up with the fun famI am the eternal Goddess<br />All races are my children<br />All genders are my children<br />All creatures are my children<br />All time is my domain<br />My body is the earth<br />Reverence me and mine<br /><br />Is this a greatness?<br /><br />Update to my (our) life.<br /><br />Blake: working, riding motorcycles and once in a while we see a glimse of him.<br /><br />Danyell, Jake, and Cris: Danyell and Cris decided to make their union official and we married a few weeks ago. Jake is doing marvelous growing up so big, life learning, rolling, grabbing, using his voice (my only wish is that I could see him more). I am happy Danyell is going to be managing the cafe so Jake can stay in with his mommy! I am both sad and happy to be a g-ma (dee dee) sad I only get moments with this beauty and happy I am enjoying the older children I have and have tucked away those nursing baby years in my heart forever. I love this fun family!<br /><br />Marc: gone, even though I do not know where he is I believe all is perfect. He is finding his path his life. Marc as showed me how children come through you yet they are not yours they are themselves. I love him and he knows he is loved and I trust that all is well with him!<br /><br />Breeana: being forced (by our **** court system/ex husband) to go to school she has not taken it very well, and towards me she is short and wants little to do with me. As much as I believe in a victimless universe I still lean into the energy of my mother bear wanting to "protect" my cubs. Perhaps she feels let down by me as her mother not being able to keep her out of school and I will just keep on loving as unschooling her as much as I can. I now feel that she is strong and wise and knows what will work for her. She has constrast the unschooling life she so loved for 2 1/2 years and now Montessori (great school as far as schools go). She says as soon as she can she is going back to unschooling forever and so are her future children. She entered "The Red Tent" and the little girl goddess has entered her stage of young goddess women. I bought her sweet treats and organic pads. Her big sister took her shopping (clothes, bras, undies, purse, sun glasses) and gave her a mature look with new hair colour. (pics to come) She went around the house all day saying "I am so beautifull" "I love myself" I thought she looked like a glamorous movie star. As much as I would like to freeze a moment in time like a picture I love to see them grow and change into the creative beings we all are inside.<br /><br />Mitch: From the day this little god came into my life I felt an old soul. I feel as if Mitch could take care of himself (practacially does) watching tv, eating, and playing video games all the while getting paid for it. He cant wait for The Garden Spot to open. He wants to serve food and get tips to buy more video games, a BIG flat screen tv, Yugioh cards, and a four wheeler. I am so happy he wants to do the cafe along with me. We will however have a special room in the cafe just for our little men (Mitch, Carter, and Jake) to watch tv, play video games, and hang out when they need a get away. I think he and I will always be more like close friends he is so apart of my personality I get that mirror of my best and not so great personality traits, I love him and thank him all the time for this.<br /><br />Carter: I can hardly believe the last of the beautiful beings that enter this time space reality through my body is 6 now. He is not wanting to do much on his own, from my vantage point I see him struggle the last few months with wanting to conrol others (yelling and becoming so fustrated with those who will not do what he wants) and not wanting to do anything for himself. He is so sweet and he has these amazing eyes that draw me into just doing for him even when I am tired or empty. He is love and peace he is always giving me kisses and loves and tells Blake and I that we are "the best parents in the whole universe". I feel so at peace being around him when he is in his element. I revel in his love.<br /><br />Me: I am busy busy working on The Garden Spot Cafe and I am having a blast learning growing and unschooling along the way. It feels so great all the way to my soul every time I am talking about it or working on anything to do with it. When ever a doubt comes to my mind it just immediately melts away from all the fire in my heart and soul with this cafe excitement and contentment. I know I am in bliss I feel so wonderful (I know I keep repeating myself). My plans now are to meet with a fellow business owner to fill in the rest of the numbers I need and then on the 11th of April I will meet with the small bus center again they will tell me what to do next. I feel a flow with all of this process. I know their is an investor out there wanting to invest $40,000 in one of the fastest growing industries, wellness/health. I will get to create a master piece of a cafe for all to be apart of and they in return with make a wonderful profit on their investment. I love myself even with those 10 pounds that I know are melting as you read.<br /><br />LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-46326250497051381572008-07-31T09:44:00.000-07:002008-07-31T11:17:52.762-07:00When Bliss FlowsI have read many books on the subject of bliss (as if one needs those), I think I read them to remind me of the bliss inside me, and it was not until lately that I am realizing my personal bliss with just me, myself and I. I never realized what the books really meant by "do what you love and the money (personal wellness) will too". I have experienced bliss many times yet I think that others had to be in my world to ignite the bliss. Now with the planning, creativity and care I am putting into THE GARDEN SPOT CAFE I am in my own world full of the true bliss charged by only myself.<br />Due to all this self <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">actualization</span> in bliss I am experiencing a new realm of confidence and excitement, life is flowing like a river that just keeps getting fuller and faster. I am creating this amazing restaurant full of "loving food to live for", an environment were people may come to relax be served and connect with others. People of all ages and sizes are welcome to read a book, play a game or just enjoy the food. I currently have one dollar to start and open the Garden Spot up and I know and feel the universe is connecting me to the rest of the funds needed. This is a win win for all <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">involved</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">whether</span> you will be a customer, employee or investor all is and will be perfect.<br />Currently I am creating the business plan, just finished the delicious menu, creating a web site and I think I even found the perfect location. All is flowing so quickly and I am just feel the excitement and fun all along the way!<br />Life is so grand when you do what you love!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-62706993392987016352008-07-22T21:43:00.000-07:002008-07-22T22:10:18.251-07:00What's goin' on in the bizI am busy busy creating my first business plan. WOW I love being a 36 year young unschooler. I get to follow my passion and inspire others, what a life I have. This whole business plan process is a lot to process and fun at the same time (if you have any advise PLEEEESE share). I am currently busy creating a menu (I love this part) and figuring out food cost (I enjoy the challenge). I am going with the KISS method (inspiring words from hubby) small menu so that I can add specials when I want. Living Pizza will be the house special, with more delicious food like, live garden burger wrap, thai curry bowl, and fun smoothies. <div>Lately I have also been exploring the real estate market and that is another challenge since I am learning costs associated with commerical rental real estate. I feel we should keep it small and quaint to offer more of an intimate setting for people. I am also looking for "an achor" like a yoga studio or health oriented space. So far I did find a great spot just not the location I was looking for and it is a posiblity. I know the perfect spot will show up with perfect timing until now the figures are helpful for me to at least know what I can budget for. </div><div>NOW One big important question is what will our name be? (again feel free to comment I would love the input) I have always loved "Delicious" for a restaurant and the first name I thought of was "Simply Deelicious" (since dee dee is my grandmother name), yet recently I thought of "Garden Spot" or "Deelicious Garden Spot"? Such an important process to name your restaurant and that puts questions out there we want a brand name because my goal is to open many of these cafes were ever I go! </div><div>I love to create delicious creations for people to eat (my mozart) and I love to serve others and talk. Ultimately I want to provide a healthy alternative to the usual fast food industry, just for fun. </div><div>More info to come so please comment and inspire with any ideas you have. </div><div>Loves and BLISS</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-37822066443419081592008-07-08T10:22:00.000-07:002008-07-22T21:43:38.370-07:00Following Your Life's Purpose<div>Lately I have been feeling discontentment in my life. </div>It has been a dream of mine to own a healthy fast food restaurant! I love to cook and prepare foods I have loved it ever since I can remember. So all the "experts" say do what you love! So I am in the works of creating a family centered, quick, healthy, living pizza, salad, smoothie cafe. I know all the negative talk about owning a restaurant and I also know that when you believe in yourself and your dream and when you feel good inside everything will work. It will be a win win for everyone: mostly organic fresh fruits and veggie for all to consume, quick and easy for all to order out or drop in, run as a family (I believe this is what is the natural learning process for humans) and of course great for the environment. <div>I am so excited I can hardly sleep!</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-51456164373101598122008-06-27T11:12:00.000-07:002008-06-27T11:52:06.483-07:00Creation in the ProcessSo in continuum to my last blog I sat down with one of my goddess sister's , Petra, and she inspired me to do something for myself (family) that I could do all the time, never get tired, and (for my requirement) my children could participate. See I have been feeling bored due to my own lack of being creative. Also I want to inspire my children in a real life setting to learn math, reading, writing, with purpose not just because. <div>I also have wanted to start a restaurant ever since I was cooking food/waiting in restaurants years ago. So I thought I love preparing food, raw food, being around people (especially conscious aware people whom many times tend to eat either raw, organic or vegetarian foods), and being with my children. Food cooking- preparing is and has been a long life love of mine and my children and others love eating my raw food or vegan creations. I know all the yada with the down falls of owning a restaurant. I am focusing on the family business, ownership, fun and unity of a loving food community restaurant. </div><div>I will also incorporating my "leaver" values of green living in anyway possible, hopefully we can put solar panels on the roof, low VOC paints, low lighting and organic or local farmers when ever possible. I will also be providing others food that in prepared in a positive loving creative setting full of conscious artistic efforts. Delicious simple creations complete with nutrition and care will be served. I have inspired my children so much Mitchel said "I will bring out the food for the people" Carter "I want to clear off the table" Bree "I could get my own cell phone with the money I earn" and Danyell will co-mange the restaurant and get to bring her baby packed on her back. Eventually Blake can quit his job that takes him so far away and be more present with us.</div><div>I believe an idea in which there is a win win in heart will bring forth greatness and prosperity! Our family wins, our friends and guests of our establishment win and the environment wins. In my heart I feel this creation aligns with my well being! I invite one and all to IN-JOY and experience the well beingness of the tasty nibbles in life and create an environment lovingly served with your heart and soul in mind!</div><div>Come In-Joy where you are always welcome!</div><div><br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-86046426305340830062008-06-24T18:03:00.000-07:002008-06-24T19:47:32.088-07:00Change is in the AirThere are seasons in the life of a mother. My seasons have come and circled back 2 times. I had 2 children close together and 4 1/2 years later had another child and then again 4 1/2 yrs later I had 2 more children close together. The baby season is over in my universe and for the last time I am entering the era of childhood 6 to 12 years old, while <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Breeana</span> enters her teen years. Each stage is special and I enjoy and learn with these young people in my life through their differences as much as their similarities. I feel grateful to connect with these young minds and yet I feel a sense that something has always been missing. <div><br /></div><div>Now with <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Danyell</span> and Marc gone out of the home, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Breeana</span> in Montessori school (by court order with Ex husband) and Mitchel and Carter doing their own explorations in life my role as their ever needed mother is becoming less of call. For the first time in my life I can not get enough books to read, I even went as far as to read a book a second time (a first for me). I am croqueting and living in my ever favorite movable home that I can not really move for at least the next 3 to 5 years. I have played this role as mother to babies since I was 16 years old and now 20 years later (wow that is hard to believe) I am experiencing new feelings. I feel content, happy and at the same time even boredom. </div><div><br /></div><div>One of my all time favorite novels is <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">The Red Tent</span> which is rather odd when I think about the fact that it is written as a biblical <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Jewish</span> novel and I am anti <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">religious</span> (not anti <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">spiritual</span>). Yet I adore the the female bonding and support that Anita <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Diamant</span> creates within her characters and historically I envy that part of the time back then when women were so supported to take time for themselves. There was so much love and support between sisters, mothers, daughters and just the relationships with women in the book I found <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">fascinating</span>. The second time I read it I started to think about the order of life and how do we know or how are we inspired to know what do our fathers or mothers do. </div><div><br /></div><div>Take breast feeding or home birth or even to earn a living, how do things happen, unfold, and take place in the natural order of our human race. In the past I have chastised women for feeding her child a bottle or women birthing their babies in an environment made from fear and medical emergencies. Our world is so big with media and children shoved off to school at 5 years of age how else do we learn? In false environments of <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">separation</span> and mindless "education" instead of inspired in real life roles. </div><div><br /></div><div>My sons really have no idea what their father does or how he does it. They spend the day with me doing just about everything for them and their sister, it seems <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">artificial</span> as if we have to make up things to do or the need for constant video games or <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">TV</span> and not real life living or community support. Not that I am saying that doing things for my children is bad, I just feel that there is a break in the natural order of a tribal community. A community in which girls learn to be women and are supported by women and boys learn to be men through a support system where fathers take their sons or sons of the community to "work" to learn what fathers do to support the family. </div><div><br /></div><div>I feel in my heart that being apart of a tribe is part of human instinct, the way we learn and grow is so important in a real life environment. In many countries this tribal culture still <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">exists</span> and in many cases holds on by a m<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">eir</span> thread. For the others that have disconnected from this way of living I can feel that eventually as more and more people become spiritually conscious and connected so to will the tribal culture regain its power and one in which people men and women alike will come to equality and respect without <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">separation</span> in color, gender or age. </div><div><br /></div><div>Perhaps to appreciate the connection of oneness humans had to create the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">illusion</span> of <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">separateness</span> and disconnect for a time. I love the prospect of tribal connection and I believe that it is important to start with myself and so I have created a tribe through friends. I will continue to create an <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">environment</span> within our family that will give <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">Breeana</span> a connection to women and the hows of being a mother, wife and also myself with my own interests. I will create a business with Mitchel and Carter to bring back the family business community and Blake will join and be the male influence in their life. Change starts with one idea, one thought and one with action. The rest is history!</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-50053862159198997802008-06-20T12:13:00.000-07:002008-06-20T12:49:10.699-07:00A New Role in the Life of Young Men<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTZIWtosiO_PZ9Or5XEiiz7Uid9fubozGkicODFlWnvy2PEZYe2zwk3GwHXv8T3zmJ_QnxaMiO_p8oFxndsS-x4yt50E5_ZESTnqMhukuTmdIFC_jrHAjwgH2lJJHQSq8YDZo3C0mAJoqf/s1600-h/SANY0653.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTZIWtosiO_PZ9Or5XEiiz7Uid9fubozGkicODFlWnvy2PEZYe2zwk3GwHXv8T3zmJ_QnxaMiO_p8oFxndsS-x4yt50E5_ZESTnqMhukuTmdIFC_jrHAjwgH2lJJHQSq8YDZo3C0mAJoqf/s200/SANY0653.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5214052926217885218" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiT85syWUFskSP4e_Lq5i5OpuzoNWZQH6A4qiVUydmIDvUegAos9-vHDPXN8vmPUrEFw63InxJiLkBFld2VGPs0nAUADO2uul9z5i-RXeSteGUgVUIoLbvOOYaorycohiN8L2bE1VC4K0gu/s1600-h/SANY0652.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiT85syWUFskSP4e_Lq5i5OpuzoNWZQH6A4qiVUydmIDvUegAos9-vHDPXN8vmPUrEFw63InxJiLkBFld2VGPs0nAUADO2uul9z5i-RXeSteGUgVUIoLbvOOYaorycohiN8L2bE1VC4K0gu/s200/SANY0652.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5214052259984545042" /></a><br />Mitchel and Carter became uncles at the age of almost 8 and 6. At first Carter the "baby" of the family did not take well to his new role. Honestly I was a bit surprises to see Mitchel display such love and affection towards his new nephew, his display of the tough-guy just melted away the moment he held his new friend. I was not sure how Carter would react being that Danyell (Jake's mom and Carter's sister) has played a role to Carter as second mommy for most of his young life. For the past 3 and 1/2 months of Jake's life Carter refused to be uncle Carter and act knowledge him as no more than a pest. <div>2 weeks ago while we were all over at Danyell's house Carter started to take to Jake. I just kept telling my daughter Danyell who was a little uneasy about Carter's behavior towards Jake to just "give Carter his space and he will come around." Carter did come around in his own time and now he gets to experience how to be gentle and soft towards his new found buddy and I believe from all the kissing and constant hugs that Carter and Jake are on a loving path. </div><div><br /></div><div>I think these are more unschooling experiences of allowing with honor and love. Just like reading, math or in this case compassion once anyone is given the space and opportunity life learning just happens and a child or adult can grow and expand. I think the best gift I can hope to offer these being that choose me to play their mother is love and space to be. I have experienced the importance of what it is to just BE WITH my child not be them or expect them to do or be anything they do not desire for themselves. I would love to inspire other parents to just give children their own space and just be their watching on their side. Watch them grow think and figure out how strong and special each one is.</div><div><br /></div><div> As I write this Carter is playing with magnets, what I can see from my point of view is the little figures put together from his hands and imagination, even more there is a glow in his eyes, and the energy of wellness and that all is perfect!<br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-73420237521708525652008-06-08T11:08:00.000-07:002008-06-09T13:01:34.624-07:00Sunday Filled Free Daze and Perfection<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9Gr32aTdPL2PmBC0RyEGCL0OAfY_T9Y5lmcGT5gptHo-71rW6ec0TuloFarPmjwguV5MspwtY0JTQleJuk0TVR28us1bvxfsGdobaW3eM8moL4Un8OxrIoSDMdnU-k8FuNYNsJfXaXOtc/s1600-h/IMG_6234.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9Gr32aTdPL2PmBC0RyEGCL0OAfY_T9Y5lmcGT5gptHo-71rW6ec0TuloFarPmjwguV5MspwtY0JTQleJuk0TVR28us1bvxfsGdobaW3eM8moL4Un8OxrIoSDMdnU-k8FuNYNsJfXaXOtc/s200/IMG_6234.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5209591759974386834" /></a><br />As I lye here in bed reading <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">The Secret Life of Bees </span>all morning and afternoon I feel a sense of peace and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">serenity</span>. I look over to Carter who is playing the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Xbox</span> 360 <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Lego Star Wars </span>and I can hear in the distance Mitchel on the computer challenging himself to a game he is so intent on winning. I am taken back to my childhood and the contrast. It has only been in the past 2 years or so when reading has been such a joy for me as I was growing up Saturdays were cleaning and then maybe play time Sundays where church going days and filled with lots of going around and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">frustration</span> between my parents so thick you could cut it with a knife. Monday through Friday was school and never did feel that I just had time to be. <div><br /></div><div>I often think what my children will take from their experience in the time space reality when I play the role of mother just about 24 hours a day? Here I have 5 different people who choose to enter my life and me to have the pleasure to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">accommodate</span> them in their journey and yet they have 5 different perspectives of what their experiences are. I am not sure what kind of mother they see through their beautiful eyes and I know I improve as life moves on and maybe that is all I can really do. I would like to think I allow them to be who they choose to be and take their journeys where they want them to go. As much as I know we <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">naturally</span> make distinctions between what suits us and what does not I know for sure that I will choose for myself what works for myself and not for others. </div><div><br /></div><div>Time for what I see and experience means everything and nothing at the same time. Time in the sense of space and progress and not clock time. It is what I feel as if I could imagine a tree senses the seasons, they come and go and will come again. I have experienced many spaces of time and my memory fills me full of joy and if I am not present enough even sadness at times. At the same time I have gained a stronger realization of illusion a knowing that I have been on this earth many times and there will be many more times here is to experience joy and even times of powerlessness in order to see, really see the true humor of life not take this world so literal, so serious. </div><div><br /></div><div>My mind drifts and I think,</div><div>In this moment Marc 17yrs is choosing a life I know nothing of. Dumbing his experience down with drugs to somewhere I do not know, for he has ran away. I have see in his eyes his illusion of torment and pain all self inflicted. He is perfect we are all perfect. I know this is now his journey where my role is one more of arms open wide full of love and to assure him all is well when he chooses. He tells me he sees himself as broken, lost and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">confused</span>. I remain rooted in the earth full of peace and a knowing that all will be well for him and for all. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">From a distance</span> even the storm is beautiful and perfect. </div><div><br /></div><div>I remember more knowing experiences,</div><div>Years ago Carter was in a hospital with many babies in an <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">ICUnit</span> the doctors would not tell me he was going to exit this earth yet all I could see was fear in their eyes that he would not pull through. I started to feel so powerless to do anything and then my spiritually connected friend, Dixie, reminded me that all would be well. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">We all choose our life and death no matter how ugly it may seem or who will be sad, our best role as the mother was to be the supporter of their</span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">choices</span>. I went over to Carter and I could feel his <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">confession</span> to leave or to stay. I dug deep into the part of my soul where knowing remains and whispered in his ear <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">it is <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">OK</span> to rest let the doctors do what they do, I support your decision if you choose to leave I will miss you and I will understand. </span>The next day hope entered the energy of the room and I know he had decided to stay. </div><div><br /></div><div>I am grateful I am allowed to be here enjoying this Sunday no need for church or <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">frustration</span>. These wonderful beings these children that choose me to play their mother, are free to be on a journey all their own, and connected to me to all at the same time. I will remain knowing that this is a victimless universes all well. They are strong they are connected to all and to spirit all at the same time. I feel peace and strength. I had children to be educated about something I came in knowing and maybe forgot a bit of before they came, I wanted the reminder, the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">in site</span> into a universes beyond sight deep into the soul. </div><div><br /></div><div>Chapter 10 is waiting along with Mitchel and the computer.</div><div>Life is perfect</div><div>Life is Bliss!</div><div><br /></div><div> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-30188603393619071902008-06-07T12:54:00.000-07:002008-06-07T13:08:44.622-07:00Educators Via Teachers and just 4 Laughs<div>I love gross humor and people who know how to redirect and inspire others in a peaceful manner. The story below has both.</div><div><br /></div>This story is of a principle and some teen aged girls in school and although I am not an industrial eduction <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">supporter</span> I loved the way this principle redirected or rather inspired this group of girls to stop the unwanted behavior of lipstick on the bathroom mirror. Only for example purposes only, not that I see anything wrong with lipstick and mirrors.<div><br /></div><div>Beware I was only told this story so I am <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">paraphrasing</span>:</div><div>After countless times of <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">courteous</span> requests by the school principle a group of girls kept on insisting on kissing the bathroom mirror as they left the building. The principle decided that a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">demonstration</span> in front of the entire class of young girls (so not to single out anyone in <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">particular</span>) might do the trick. After everyone <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">congregated</span> in the bathroom the principle proceed to dip a rag into the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">toilet</span> and swish it around and clean the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">toilet</span>. Then he took the same rage and started wiping off the bath mirror (former place of lipstick). Needless to say there was never any lipstick on the bathroom mirrors. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">LOL</span></div><div><br /></div><div>Take life with humor it is Bliss!!</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-66501569793187952782008-06-06T14:12:00.000-07:002008-06-06T14:57:50.818-07:00Create Your Universe on Purpose<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhiseq5iAYFN8cUkSEufcjkvfsyc8uM1dGne21pnRgmAPxbIyjXjMpZZpkdNEVbZYN-IZf2abk53171MN7Gg9d4HmNp85B2-V_yaDsxT3R3drtfUzF9pEugaYRSyJJtyl9liCtBGwXNHWsA/s1600-h/redrose2.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhiseq5iAYFN8cUkSEufcjkvfsyc8uM1dGne21pnRgmAPxbIyjXjMpZZpkdNEVbZYN-IZf2abk53171MN7Gg9d4HmNp85B2-V_yaDsxT3R3drtfUzF9pEugaYRSyJJtyl9liCtBGwXNHWsA/s320/redrose2.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5208890758835401906" /></a><br />I feel an overwhelming gratitude for the connections I have created in my universe. For my friends and family and the family/friends who I refer to as the family I created on the planet NOW. <div>As I was driving by a gas station yesterday and looked over to see the current price of a gallon of fuel I believe my heart skipped a beat when I saw fuel starting at $4.01 a gallon. I consciously began to feel a sense of gratefulness towards to people in charge of this fuel process. </div><div>Now you are probably thinking I am crazy. You are right and I have a belief that we are all connected! We are part of the whole that makes up all this time space reality. I feel there is a focus going on in our world of fear over the fuel prices, over war in oil countries, and all associated with this subject. I have too been there myself and done just that and NOW I am and have changed my perspective to one of thankfulness -GRATITUDE! </div><div>I think change happens so perfectly when the contrast is so strong, like fuel prices raising at such a rapid rate! Desire coming when there is pain, perhaps in your pocket book, if one is not careful desire out of pain or helplessness will only creates more pain and helplessness and more raising fuel prices. Desire when there is simply a contrast of what is not wanted is there to create positive emotion of wanting in a perspective of creativity, as in an alternative to fossil fuel and clean energy. </div><div>As a culture we have been using fossil fuels to power many of our daily pleasures for about 100 years now. Now is the time for change! I feel the change is coming! I feel the energy in the wave of creative minds going to work quickly (because of the contrast of rising fuel costs and the environmental attentions) to create something so amazing we may all rise to the feeling of possibly POWERFULNESS.</div><div>We all feel contrast within our being and consciously we can choose to be grateful. Grateful that we have the beautiful or not so beautiful contrast and KNOW that all it well and perfect. We are here on this wonderful time space reality to experience all the contrast provided to us perfectly and in all the right timing. As you read this my wish goes out to you to gain awareness and KNOW that there IS perfection in all contrast and only by striving for consciousness will we see it. </div><div>I would love to see us join each other in a conscious effort through our thought, words and actions and feel at least hopeful that there is a wonderful solution to all the not so beautiful contrast that we are experiencing around us. </div><div>Join the conscious movement as be! We are walking through a bed a roses can you smell, see, feel, and taste the beauty that you wish to create in the NOW (not the thorns that we may step on along the way)?</div><div><br /></div><div>With Bliss,</div><div>Darlene</div><div><br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-69429880876487376172008-06-06T14:08:00.000-07:002008-06-06T14:57:30.118-07:00I feel hopeful for the future of human kindMay 19, 2008<br />Milk of human kindness<br /><br /><br />PERSONAL CONTRIBUTION: Ms Jiang Xiaojuan is helping to nurse eight babies affected by the quake.<br /><br />A CHINESE policewoman is contributing to the country's massive earthquake relief effort in a very personal way - by breast-feeding eight babies.<br />A newspaper in Chengdu, the capital of quake-hit Sichuan province, yesterday devoted a special page to 29-year-old Jiang Xiaojuan, calling her a 'hero' while Web users hailed her as 'the most beautiful mother' in the world.<br /><br />Ms Jiang, from the quake-ravaged town of Jiangyou, has just had a child herself, the Western Daily reported. She is breast-feeding the children of three women who have been left homeless by the quake and are too traumatised to nurse, as well as five orphans, the report said.<br /><br />One mother, Ms Chen Tanghua, 36, said she has been unable to breast-feed her six-month-old son. He had been crying from hunger until Ms Jiang offered to breast-feed him.<br /><br />The babies who lost their parents have been put in an orphanage which does not have powdered milk, the newspaper reported. It said Ms Jiang brushed off a reporter's questions about her deed by saying: 'All mothers love children. Nursing a few babies is no big deal.'<br /><br />AGENCE FRANCE-PRESSEUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-62750965222934748272008-05-20T10:01:00.000-07:002008-05-20T11:06:56.561-07:00Is Image everything?<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhp-hnGVYtKLETqx-4pVhpCis-2eKBlAlcHmfER1X2fdGbVJpPeG6QxCLxnJi4k3YBu6asWy3qVMzI37JPfb2KG3mXj3VxFy8kI2CfZCVopd2Fd_ALFYxBLhz_D2OOazZBVldQ5axu__-2e/s1600-h/IMG_0268.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhp-hnGVYtKLETqx-4pVhpCis-2eKBlAlcHmfER1X2fdGbVJpPeG6QxCLxnJi4k3YBu6asWy3qVMzI37JPfb2KG3mXj3VxFy8kI2CfZCVopd2Fd_ALFYxBLhz_D2OOazZBVldQ5axu__-2e/s320/IMG_0268.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5202507673787192914" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhJRr3pHgvFXnKxU_YuW26WzpUwhpAYizOvt4E2E0Lgh5luNp468twCSz_Vrh1iuZV3cFqE8kM-8rZLRBdyP0p0G5507EFMveURnf9wdlhrB6Z55Xnok7Ufdnc3ztwvEerax_h-Ws4G06sY/s1600-h/SANY0614.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhJRr3pHgvFXnKxU_YuW26WzpUwhpAYizOvt4E2E0Lgh5luNp468twCSz_Vrh1iuZV3cFqE8kM-8rZLRBdyP0p0G5507EFMveURnf9wdlhrB6Z55Xnok7Ufdnc3ztwvEerax_h-Ws4G06sY/s320/SANY0614.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5202507678082160226" /></a><br /><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>For the past few years i have been <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">intrigued</span> by the idea of shaving my head. I wanted to know what it physically felt like to be physically "naked". Carter woke one morning in April requesting that he wanted to get a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">mohawk</span> hair cut that day! So after explaining all the to do about the non <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">existence</span> of hair he still wanted the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">mohawk</span> and so he did get it. After the hair cut Carter said "I want my hair back". After some colored gel and talk he soon came to like his new red <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">mohawk</span>. A few days later I woke and decided I wanted to shave off my hair and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">metaphorically</span> speaking all the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">negativity</span> in my life too and see what it was like to be hair-free! </div><div>I was a bit sadden to see that most of the reaction I received was the people asking or presuming I had cancer. Kids mostly just point and say "mom look that lady has no hair". I personally loved the freedom of waking up and not having to do my hair. Life has been easy and carefree. Blake on the other hand has not liked it. He shaves his hair (due to top balding) and he says it feels a little strange with both of us with shaved. </div><div><br /></div><div>I saw a show were a very beautiful thin actress dressed up in a suit designed to make her look bigger than her now self. She received different stares and attention then before. People walking away from her and avoiding her rather than towards her and drawn to her. Was it her in the suit and her energy of difference or just the suit and the images people put in their minds?</div><div><br /></div><div>When I was little I remember thinking that if all people were blind we would be forced to see the true people inside, even ourselves. Our eyes can actually hinder our ability to see the beauty within ourselves and others. </div><div><br /></div><div>I love a new show on cable TV (not that I watch TV too often) called "How to look good Naked" I recommend watching it at least once. The host on the show helps women see themselves as the beautiful women they really are no matter what size, age or color, instead of the illusion they have in their head. They are confronted with the illusion and feelings behind their image and then go through a process by which to SEE the beauty within themselves. By the end of the show they are feeling better about their self image enough to have nude photos taken of them (very tastefully done I might add) and then placed out in the open for public opinion. I think because of their <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">confidence</span> and love of who they really are.</div><div><br /></div><div> Now I think "I was born with hair I have always had hair and then at 36 years 6 months nothing but skin." This process has been freeing, uncomfortable at times and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">uncertain</span> and growing. Growing in a way of cleaning off the old and welcoming the new the NOW. I am <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">observing</span> the growth of my hair the textures, colors, and growth that change each day. I am calm and patient and at times i see the many strands of gray and think that must be this body and not me for I AM new colorful and FULL of LIFE! </div><div><br /></div><div>Image or not I AM on the inside,</div><div>Darlene</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-67994743578209206932008-05-20T09:07:00.001-07:002008-05-20T09:43:30.665-07:00I am finally back in the saddleSo the past few months I have been in a different phase. Without making this a 12 page blog I will give you the condensed version:<div>January: moved out of house into a 1980 <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">GMC</span> Midas C Class RV </div><div>Marc, the dog and girlfriend <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Salina</span> moved out.</div><div>February: in court:ex-husband wants <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Breeana</span> (currently <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">unschooling</span>) in school</div><div>And NEW <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">grandbaby</span> is born YEA Jake.</div><div>March:New 5<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">th</span> Wheel YEA and Marc moves back in YEA! </div><div>April: Court again and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Breeana</span> forced into school (judge does not like me <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">cuz</span> I'm not paying her campaign fund <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">LOL</span>), luckily its Montessori.</div><div>May: Moved from Boulder City to <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Las</span> Vegas again Marc graduation from High School. </div><div>Currently: all is well just as life goes. I miss the totally <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">unschooling</span> life with all 3 of my younger children and I am grateful that Bree is at least in a Montessori school and not in "Industrial Education called Public Schooling". I am standing by while my 17 yr old son is experiencing in bouts of unhappiness (called "depression" and "anxiety")and him wanting to take doctor <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">prescib</span> pills (something I have never believed in or given my children) and allowing it to be his choice. Blake and I are getting along better than we have in 4 years I feel we are on the up side of a really rocky battle and the dust is settling and we realize we are really better at being friends than enemies. I feel hopeful that even though I think I jumped the gun on living in a RV a little too soon I am here were I am. . . living . . . . breathing . . . I AM. </div><div>I miss my blogging I think it is the only time I can write and feel free to say what I want to say. Strange considering anyone can read these thoughts. And there are no secrets we are all connected all apart of one another I love me and I love you if you are reading thanks for the ear!</div><div>Darlene</div><div>PS I am back on the blogging train and I am not getting off again (I feel hopeful about this statement)! </div><div> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-8674342190792031042007-12-16T10:09:00.000-08:002007-12-16T11:01:36.429-08:00Challenge v Anger, Lets Rise to CreativitySo I am writing here on an observation of highly creative highly emotional energetic people like myself and looking back now realizing why I was in the principals office more than the class room for a many a years. Until recently I thought I must have been a bad kind because there was all this disapproval going on with all the adults. NOW through my observation of my young child self and my son Mitch, who is <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">sooo</span> much an expansion of me, realized that it is only when my son or myself is/was not creatively challenged that is when the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">frustration</span>, trapped, anger, etc emotions come up for myself and him. I and people with these very creative intellectual minds are not bad they are extremely smart displaying their emotions of any given situation very outwardly. I remember having certain teachers that had a lot of creative extra activities (beyond school regurgitation) and those school years I did spend most of the time in their class and not in the principals office and felt <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">satisfied</span>. <div><br /></div><div>Now since Mitch, Bree, and Carter are in life learning school (<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">unschooling</span>) I am <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">constantly</span> inspired to provide challenging games, tools, anything I can think of and providing the things they ask for <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">available</span> to them around the house since this is part of the world learning environment they are apart of. I notice that when Mitchel feels unable to pass a level (for the moment)in his video game he stops playing and during that phase of space in between going back to the game or finding the next challenge he is restless and many times he outwardly displays hitting others and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">fierce</span> anger towards me. These are only emotions that are not personally against anyone just his displaying of needing the next challenge and yet not knowing how to ask for it. </div><div><br /></div><div>I have learned <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">sooo</span> very much about myself through watching Mitchel (my true mirror). When I looked into his soul through the first connection when he was born I realized that he is a mature being he is creative and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">intelligent</span> and not that all of my children are not he is just so to the front out there in life grabbing life and asking for knowledge and powerful in his being. </div><div>He wears his emotions on his shoulders and can swing from the most loving person to the most almost unbearable to live with. Knowing that I see <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">soooo</span> very much of me in him I rise to the challenge to understand (even though I make retakes (mistakes) so many of the time) him and this inspires more awareness of myself and consciousness comes about naturally through this being. </div><div><br /></div><div>Since all of this new found awareness of myself and Mitchel I can see that perhaps peoples negative actions could be in large part do to the lack of creative challenge. How can young people sit in a class room and be asked to memorize this or that when it does not mean anything. There is no challenge no creativity in the process of public or private education? In this system there is no room for movement or questions or growth, when life is all of these and more. How is it that the US nation is so abundant and yet the "education system" is so poor. My opinion and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">observation</span> is that it is the drop outs, home <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">schoolers</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">unschoolers</span>, the creative ones that created and still create this country. Especially the children born today and more so into the future they are an expansion us of this time and space more and more these beings will come in demanding more challenges and being more and more creative. I can feel in my soul that the systems of control and separation are on the brink of the fall and in there space with BE a more creative world of oneness with more light and love for all to grow to expand to move. </div><div><br /></div><div>I write these words for awareness for change for self conscious healing. Everything I see inside my soul I already know will BE for all thought IS! I know that we are all powerful god-essence beings capable of everything we put our minds to I just hope that those thoughts are for all good.</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-5091281212506321182007-12-14T20:34:00.000-08:002007-12-14T21:48:46.954-08:00Practice BEING HAPPY no matter whatI feel so amazed and grateful for the friends I have manifested in my life. A great friend of mine read my last blog entry and then personally possed the thought to me that perhaps I could find a way to be happy without needing anything first. I am not sure why I feel so sad, why I am not sleeping and why I am also so angry at my loved ones, I have a great life and I can not really give myself a reason for my attitude lately. Then another friend within my wonderful group who is a massage theripist said she experienced negative stuff when she first started giving massage early in her career. Releasing her clients pain and taking it on herself. <div>I am now asking myself:</div><div>Am I taking on others pains?</div><div>Can I be happy without anything?</div><div><br /></div><div>I am not sure if I am taking on others pains? Just the awareness to be conscious of this gives me an avenue.</div><div>Yes I can BE Joyous without anything. A thought came to me recently as a was watching a group of unschooling children play, Do I practice BEING HAPPY, BEING JOYOUS, BEING in the place that I desire? I know that when I am "playing" or focused on being in joy that I am at peace and feeling joyous. Most importantly I treat myself and others well.</div><div><br /></div><div>How do I love to play and what do I want to focus on in the NOW:</div><div>1. I love to feel the sun's heat and feel the suns rays hug my body.</div><div>2. I love to jump on the trampoline especially with my children hearing them laugh and giggle.</div><div>3. I feel so relaxed when I am croqueting.</div><div>4. I feel so cozy laying in bed reading to Mitch, Carter, and Bree (when she lets me). It is our moment to connect, communicate and enjoy the peace and calmness of the evening.</div><div>5. Dream of my road trips as if I am already there, dream of my Costa Rica home that I saw in a dream one evening 1 and 1/2 years ago, or the vision of the Green TV show I have visions of, when I am dreaming as if I am already there I feel so excited, even a since of knowing </div><div>6. I look forward to my life now and everyday as now I think aging is so honorable (no longer the doom and gloom of the previous thoughts), my vision of living beyond a hundred years and realizing that I have so much time to do anything I would choose to do. </div><div>7. I have this new found love and liking of myself and who I am. I love being my own friend, going to movies by myself, taking myself to eat and realizing that I am so amazing. (In the past I never liked to even look at myself in the mirror and thought I was a bad person and not worthy of the life I had within me.)</div><div>8. I love listening to my ipod and listen to music from Beethoven to Fergie or teaching of Abraham-hicks, Wayne Dyer, Eckhart Tolle, Neale Donald, etc. Hearing the words of spirituality from those inspiring people overwelms my soul with so much peace, like hearing words that I already knew (even said and thought some of them as a child) and just now hearing for the first time and knowing it is truth because for me I feel powerful and have a sense of pure knowing deep within my soul. </div><div>9. I love to "dance as if no one is looking", I feel as free as a bird. (I would love to fly like a bird).</div><div>10. I love to paint and create art it is beautiful to me. </div><div>11. I love seeking out more play and fun and that feels joyful and adventurous. </div><div><br /></div><div>WoW it is amazing that just the thought of those joy-play I feel the tickle in my stomach and an anticipation of doing and appreciation of my life and who I am and where I am. I know I am an expanding being and apart of the whole of the unvierse of GODESSENCE.</div><div><br /></div><div>I think about the amazement of this world and the perfection of it all, life will always continue, happen, grow, be, how abuntant and connected. </div><div><br /></div><div>I wish all NAMASTE!!</div>"I honor the Spirit in you which is also in me." -- attributed to author Deepak Chopra<br />"I honor the place in you in which the entire Universe dwells, I honor the place in you which is of Love, of Integrity, of Wisdom and of Peace, When you are in that place in you, and I am in that place in me, we are One."<br />"I salute the God within you."<br />"I recognize that we are all equal."<br />"The entire universe resides within you."<br />"The divine peace in me greets the divine peace in you."<br />"Your spirit and my spirit are ONE." -- attributed to Lilias Folan's shared teachings from her journeys to India.<br />"That which is of the Divine in me greets that which is of the Divine in you."<br />"The Divinity within me perceives and adores the Divinity within you."Unknownnoreply@blogger.com20tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-70000577574513983362007-12-11T00:02:00.000-08:002007-12-11T01:00:36.959-08:00What's Up?<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj9R1wq_47iKcZ6_N1uhlenlRErC1GWS7hVbOBKe6YrBtm2ZrwfsT-RWSjNF2V4DXY_VS9YZEXLZxyNepguAyH_sEC-cmca06OnL7sl8qPRCiyo_RoUApRk0b-rJNsf5Vb6Bz_8c8w6NRNZ/s1600-h/IMG_5889.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj9R1wq_47iKcZ6_N1uhlenlRErC1GWS7hVbOBKe6YrBtm2ZrwfsT-RWSjNF2V4DXY_VS9YZEXLZxyNepguAyH_sEC-cmca06OnL7sl8qPRCiyo_RoUApRk0b-rJNsf5Vb6Bz_8c8w6NRNZ/s320/IMG_5889.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5142637069625381266" /></a><br /><div>New Family photos oh how fun!</div><div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEio3DgqsMwty-zIoDMGhhRzc5gF7hHNAVY39XyoKz5DbWJBcfqaZ16GzLVYtxokrw7lfvsPrT9xej-Ow7H34IhpbfCDoG-Byqkbdvu0I7IpYC4GuH0bChlkcz-Z8THXq8QRJ823HZZacFvw/s1600-h/IMG_5885.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEio3DgqsMwty-zIoDMGhhRzc5gF7hHNAVY39XyoKz5DbWJBcfqaZ16GzLVYtxokrw7lfvsPrT9xej-Ow7H34IhpbfCDoG-Byqkbdvu0I7IpYC4GuH0bChlkcz-Z8THXq8QRJ823HZZacFvw/s320/IMG_5885.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5142637073920348578" /></a><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Ok</span> I know I have not blogged for a very long time. I will spare you from all the 1001 reasons why I have not been blogging. So here it is midnight on Dec 11 and I am blogging. . . <div><br /></div><div>Anyone that knows me knows I just can not be cold yet here I live in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Las</span> Vegas freezing and cold. I have even been feeling a bit sad and depressed I NEED the sun. Unlike those of you out there loving the "change of seasons" I love warm wonderful sun and sunny rain. So I am also into seasons, avocado, persimmon, mango, etc season. My diet changes with season from Banana's and Oranges to Melons of any kind by the change in season. Now without heaters and layers of clothing and houses (shelter) many on you would not enjoy the season of snow, sleet, COLD. </div><div><br /></div><div>For some years I have felt very sad come Dec, Jan and Feb I came to a conclusion today that I might have to be in the tropics very soon (at least in winter) or I could soon go insane from sadness. I LOVE being in joy and I am such a fun person when I am in that joy way. I was thinking that I just need to practice being in joy even if I fake it that way I will still be in practice when I find the sun and joy again.</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Living in the moment and reading "Dance of the Dissident daughter"</span></div><div>So I have felt very restless for a many a months now and it is only getting worse. I love being a gypsy and love moving around (RV here I come) and I have now been in Vegas 3 years and lived in this house for almost 2 years straight I am so ready to leave, explore, run, jump, and live on sunshine. Yet in my moment I know I still have a lease until end of Jan and my daughter is having a baby in March and wants my help for a bit after the baby is born. Just between you and I, I am feeling trapped and caged I really would like to leave today this moment and fly out into the sky like a bird released from a cage. No in this moment I am laying in bed wanting to be thankful for being here in the bed in the same house for almost 2 years and in Vegas for 3 years and remain in Vegas until May (can you hear the gratefulness). I feel I have grown so much in the past 2 years and now I feel I am gaining momentum and all the stuff is slowing my momentum down and damn it I love momentum. </div><div>I am enjoying me and I am ready to move forward. After being a mommy and totally devoted to my children and losing myself in the mommy who is "Darlene" role I am on to a new chapter in my life book. I like and love myself and finally giving myself permission to be me I am ready to explore my wants and desires. Finally get on the road and see the world through my eyes. Sandal up family cause you are with Darlene no longer the mommy and wife and housekeeper--the wild, fun, crazy, adventurous, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">hippy</span> gypsy, joy seeking person that I just found after a many a years and I am ready to ride the wave with you all as your best friend. </div><div>I know that a many women out there love the mom title and love being mom. Don't get me wrong I loved having my children and will always love the birthing and nursing and all that comes with the baby scene and I feel like when the mom title comes in as the kids start to grow and all that parenting stuff happens so does the vision of fun and self. I feel like I turn into a control person and yet when someone calls me by my name I am removed from those notions of control and "parenting" and I get to be the inspiring friend and confidant and I love those thoughts. </div><div>I think my children choose me and me them so to experience joy and contrast through their eyes and live their lives. Control is a world I unconsciously allow myself to fall into once in a while, consciously I believe the people that came through my body are strong beings capable of all they need to live their lives and be. WOW I feel so great when I write those words. Victimless world full of strong being guiding themselves towards what thoughts they think. All capable of creating a life of their choice. I feel so fabulous when I think and feel this way, I think it must be right because I feel so close to my source. </div><div><br /></div><div>Well for now I think I have said enough here's to the sun and when we all will allow all to be.</div><div>I will be singing a manifesting song of "Here comes the sun" and How grateful I am to be a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">pendulum</span> that swings through the trees full of <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">sadness</span> one moment and happiness the next.</div><div>Darlene</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-62739438530131487482007-11-16T07:35:00.000-08:002007-11-16T10:16:02.345-08:00My DecisionsTo let you know I have not written in a long time and I have wanted to why? I was feeling "restless" in my life and NOW as the days pass I am talking charge of many of those "restless" issues and one by one they are solved!!<div><br /></div><div>So here is an up date for those who would like to know and assist and myself to see for me. </div><div><br /></div><div>1. Road Trip/RV Living:</div><div>We will still be living in the RV that in not in my possession YET and not until the end of Feb instead of the beginning. We have a friend who gets vehicles at auctions and he will not be back from Australia until the middle to end of Feb. We will be saving about $10,000 or more and so we are patient. Meanwhile we will be living in Las Vegas where ???? Probably one of those week to week rentals or who knows what will fall into my universe or brain come close to Feb.. We will NOT be living in the rental house we are currently in. </div><div><br /></div><div>2. My son and his girl friend:</div><div>In the past I have struggled with this issue because I have never been in these waters. </div><div>For those reading this let me update you:</div><div>In March we found out that our soon to be 16 year old and his soon to be 18 year old girlfriend were pregnant. </div><div>In April we moved his girlfriend into our house to help them out. </div><div>In May she had a miscarriage. </div><div>In June they went and got a dog without the ok of the rest of the family.</div><div>From April to August neither my 16 year old son, Marc or his 18 girl friend, Salina had a job or was going to school. They spent their days playing games and coloring and watching TV.</div><div>I was practicing the art of allowing them to come to some motivation on their own to start providing for themselves. I was buying their food ($400 a month) and providing all that they needed (feminine Hygiene, including dog food). They were not picking up dog poop (that is without constant reminders)or helping out around the house.</div><div>I figured that they knew that we were going to start traveling in Feb 2008 and that they might want to start earning a living and preparing to move on with the world of adulthood since this is what they said they wanted.</div><div>I was wrong. Funny thing about formally telling your children what to do, eventually many of them expect you to. </div><div>So at the beginning of September I sat down with them and layed out our family plans of going on the road and invited Marc to join us because he is my son and he is still 16 years old. And I informed them that if they were going to get their own place they would need employment and a deposit. </div><div>By the end of Sept they had employment.</div><div>Beginning of Oct Salina and I got into an argument because I was having a kid party and there was poop all over the lawn from the dog and she was not going to pick it up because "she does not pick up dog poop". So I said then the dog can not live here and so she and the dog left. There was more to the story but that is the just of it. </div><div>They moved in with Marc's dad for about 2 and 1/2 weeks (and it was very peaceful around our house).</div><div>Marc came back one day and cried about how unhappy he was and that things would be different if he could move back. So we of course welcomed him back along with Salina and dog (reluctantly I might add and we love Marc and want for him what he chooses). </div><div>She was layed off from her job and so for the past month has not really looked much. </div><div>I have also be taking Marc to and from work at 6:50am and picking him up at 3:30pm.</div><div>I have been very tired I like being a night owl and I like my body waking me up when I feel rested.</div><div>For whatever reason I feel a bit afraid to talk to Marc, he is very powerful young person and gets very upset outwardly and openly. I know this is my stuff and I had to face that it was not going to happen like this anymore and I know that he is an strong, able, capable person to take care of his needs since he does want to be an adult.</div><div>Last night I wrote a lease contract out that included dog poop fees if I had to pick it up (I was NOT going to remind any more, I felt like a nag). If the rent is not paid on time (what Salina, Marc and I had agreed to $300 for rent with $250 going to their deposit on an apartment since we are moving out in Feb and $50 to us) Salina and Bella had to move out. Basically I felt I had to tell them what to do (which by the way is so hard for me). I guess I reasoned it by the fact that they will be signing a lease soon that does lay it out there and they will have to follow those guide lines or else they will be out. I did also include what my responsibility would be. A give and take. And I could no longer drive him to work in the morning or pick him up (since his dad is offering or the bus runs very close to his job and our house).</div><div>I do and did feel very good over this contract and very good after I left their room (even though Salina was not happy about the fact that she will have to move out if the rent is not paid on time since they have had 45 days to pay it) and I did ask them that if they had anything to add or a problem with something then we could discuss it and solve it. </div><div>Needless to say they signed the agreement and NOW at least it is in writing and everyone knows where their place is. We are the parents leasing the space to them paying all the $1400 in rent plus utilities of $400 a month and they are the family tenants leasing the space for $50 a month (I feel this is a great deal). </div><div><br /></div><div>I want to see all of my children as powerful being in total control of the creation of the reality. I love them and I love myself and I know that co-creating is just that CO. </div><div>I feel that by the way I feel that I did the right thing for our family and what works for us. And if it does not we can just be flexible and change.</div><div><br /></div><div>3. Holidays:</div><div>I love my and my children's birthday and those are the holiday's I love to celebrate.</div><div>I don't like it that people have created holidays and I am told I have to give. I love to Give I just feel that I love to give when I choose to give and with Christmas I feel that I am being told to give. So I have made a decision for me, I will only be participating in the love of holidays and unless I feel inspired to give or make something for someone I will NOT. I am inspiring my children to see that the joy of giving to others can happen 365 days a year.</div><div>I have explained to all of my family that giving will be done by choice and that each of us have that choice. I personally will be creating lots of fun and giving on their birth days because I am so happy they came into my life I know them and I love to celebrate them coming into this time space reality with me. And when I find something that they have asked for beyond their monthly spending money I may be inspired to get it for them (especially when the universe provides for a bargain price or extra prosperity has flowed our way). </div><div><br /></div><div>4. Voting:</div><div>In college I decided I would not ever vote because I was not impressed by the voting process in our free country. So until I felt like their was a president worth voting for or any politician for that matter I would not be voting. </div><div>Now if Hilary (man without penis) Clinton gets voted I am going to live in Costa Rica or Mexico and I will do my best to not be a US citizen.</div><div>Now I will vote for Ron Paul if he is a candidate (even though I know how the whole electoral process works). Yes I will break my non voting record of almost 20 years and I will register and drive myself over to vote at a ballet. Anyone who really knows me knows that this is big for me. I truly believe that your biggest vote come from how you live your life. </div><div><br /></div><div>I live:</div><div>I do not own a mortgage, I do not work for another person nor will I ever, I Unschool my children, I do not pay taxes on anything beside non food items (I love to order online and then I even beat those), I do not eat meat, dairy or soy, I buy organic, I shop at 2nd hand stores, I will so have an electric car and I will be biking when my children are old enough for me to not have a car, I will be buying solar and wind for my RV and have so wanted that forever, If I ever have a house it will be mortgage free and off the grid totally, I will eventually barter my way through life and live off "sunshine, water and fresh fruits that the earth will provide for me and I will be so rich I will give away to other randomly and without judgement."</div><div>So this is my stuff.</div><div><br /></div><div>5. My vision of my career and global awareness.</div><div>I believe in law of attraction and so I am confused why others like Al Gore want to put a movie out there full of fear factors. I love Green and believe in it because it is common sense. </div><div>So I have an idea for a cable show possibly on HGTV. I could travel (with my children and partner) around the world to interview people using green solutions. I feel that most of the US population does not really understand solar, wind and other processes of green or how to get it or think that it is too expensive. I could interview alternative energy experts in an informative way to give the public more understanding in a positive way without the fear. The show would be fun and crazy cause I am and I could even add a non cooked veggie food recipe made by a friend of mine using little to no energy and organic. I think this would be perfect for me I love to travel, I love to talk, I love green alternatives, I love to inspire, I desire for my husband to be with us and to stop his line of work he does not like and my children love being with dad and mom. </div><div><br /></div><div>Any person out there that is reading this if you know of any producers or how to do this beyond my putting the thought out there, I would love your opinion. </div><div><br /></div><div>6. Family Past, Present, Future:</div><div>I am going to my mom's to spend some time (how much I am not sure) I will be leaving the family I have made with my goddess sisters and their families and entering a world I no longer know and I will be appreciating the contrast and knowing that I love the family I was born into and they know the being I was in the past. I appreciate the family I have created now and they know the being I have expanded into. In my opinion I am going to a place that they and I see the past because we are not around each other to have an image of the present because I live here and they live there. It seems rather crazy if I think about it like that. Oh well I have decided that this will be the last time for a while that I will be seeing them and I have changed my former negative perspective of the situation to see that there is beauty in the past and the present and even the anticipation of the road I am paving for the future. Because my being is still apart of the past I can choose to be involved in it once in awhile. Yet I feel less of the past of me becomes less important as the years pass, therefore I do not choose to visit the past too often. I love to be in the present and if I do not I have the power to change it. I am where I am and right now I am loving myself and feel myself expanding even through this blog!</div><div><br /></div><div>Thanks for reading</div><div>Have a Joyous day!</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189310076801798710.post-8767437800121982232007-10-21T09:21:00.000-07:002007-10-21T09:56:35.393-07:0036 years today, have I really been in this time, space, reality that many years?Up until recently age has been an issue for me NOW since listening to <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Healthy at 100</span> by John Robbins, a book about people in other parts of the world living way past 100 and doing it without drugs, I have a great new perspective on myself and how I feel about aging. I now feel that with age truly does come wisdom and more vitality. In the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Centenarian</span> societies John speaks about, people lie of their age to be older and age is more of a fun event and people look forward to the years as they past. These people remain healthy physical and mentally young and vibrant because they continue with their lives in a light hearted fun way. From my perspective it is the attitude and mentality of the people that keeps them young way into their 140 plus years. I will always remain healthy and vibrant and I love keeping my young vibrant awareness. Honestly I still feel 18 my body feels strong and lean. <div><br /></div><div>Yesterday I was getting some stuff together for a yard sale and came across some pictures of me at 16 years I looked at them and thought "I think I look much better now". I know that what ever aging I do do will be a compliment to my beauty and even at 100 plus I will be out their exploring and living life enjoying the beautiful road I will continue to pave. I challenge any of you reading this now to define our societies expectations of aging as a bad thing and prove them wrong. It only takes that 1% to start the change of belief factors. Age is only years and there is beauty in all, just enjoy your path and make it what you want it to be.</div><div><br /></div><div>Happy Birthday to me I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">celebrate</span> this special holiday because I love me and I love who I am. I am young, sexy and oh so beautiful. Today is the first day of the rest of my life and I intent to joyously ride the wave to the fullest. Over the next year I will be living my dream of travel and promoting health and wellness. I will be a "<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">dee</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">dee</span>" (grandmother) in March 2008, I will remain and even improve on the healthiest and strongest I have ever been. Fun and Joy is the road I pave for the next year. </div><div>I am Young! </div><div>I am Beautiful!</div><div>I am Fun!</div><div>I am Goddess of my universe so hear me Sing loud and clear inspiring others to let go and just enjoy the ride down stream!</div><div><br /></div><div>Thanks to all who make up my universe I love you all!</div><div>DHARMA</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4